A little over a week ago I had my first MMA fight. I didn’t want to write about it straight away because in front of a hundred people or so, I was unnamed, a Taekwondo black belt with no reputation in this sport, two ringside tables filled with my training partners and teammates, I was embarrassingly mounted, then ground and pounded into unconsciousness. It was a wrestling lesson.
The fight starts, I come out and touch gloves. For a second I look at this guy in front of me and think ‘Oh shit, I’m an MMA fighter’. Then I remember that I’m actually in a fight and as my Head Coach Allan once said ‘In a combat sport you have to actually fucking hit someone’.
I snap back into the fight, I landed a really solid inside leg kick and he winces in pain. Then he flurries forward with a barrage of punches which pushes me into the corner, I landed two hard body kicks in quick succession. Unfortunately my fight or flight response kicked in and I started kicking instead of getting out of the corner. He shot in for a take down, after some time he got it and landed in side control. His BJJ and Wrestling was a few steps above my own. Eventually he mounted me and pummeled me with punches until I was out.
I lost my debut. That is a sentence I didn’t want to ever have to write. It was my amateur debut so I guess it isn’t as important but it still hurts. I felt lost after the fight, I didn’t feel injured or sore, I stepped out of the ring without a drop of sweat on my body.
A Kanye West lyric has been in my head ever since. “I’m ready for the Worlds Games/ This is my Olympics”.
I will not attend the Rio Games next year. That is the truth, but why did I want to become an Olympian in the first place? It wasn’t a lifelong love of the Olympic Games it was because I was doing Taekwondo and being an Olympian was the height of that sport. Going to a World Championship in Taekwondo is an amazing achievement, but it is only being an Olympian that is on everyone’s mind.
If the Worlds were the biggest competition you could go to that would be my end goal. Being on Team Australia for Worlds. In MMA the UFC is the Olympics. In BJJ the IBJJF World Championships are the Olympics. Its the highest level you can compete at.
After losing 10 days ago I am still on track to make my first ‘Olympics’ next year at the IBJJF Worlds in California. I am competing on the highest level possible one way or another. After losing I can still go to the Abu Dhabi World Pro Championships next year. I am not out of the running to make the UFC because I lost one fight. This reality has taken all of the pressure off of competing.
Taekwondo was always so much about winning this so you can go to that, so you can get enough points for that, but only if you can afford it because the funding is shit house, then if you do well in that you can be in the Top 32 for this, then come back to Australia to fight this, so you can go to that. Its a mouthful. Here is the reality that I live in now. You wanna compete at Worlds? You think you are the best in the world? Come prove it.